By Nassra al-Ahmed
Ali al-Nimr was just 17 when he was arrested on 14 February 2012, a few months after taking part in anti-government rallies in Saudi Arabia. He was sentenced to death, despite being a minor when he was arrested and following a deeply unfair trial based on “confessions” he says were obtained through torture. He now awaits his execution. His mother, Nassra al-Ahmed, tells their story.
His absence has exhausted my heart. My eyes shed tears automatically, yearning for him. I am overtaken by missing his angelic features. His smile never leaves my mind and memories prompt me to weep each time I see one of his pictures.
Everything that was beautiful
Before Ali’s arrest, my family led a normal life. He was a nice beautiful child who never ceased to become even more beautiful as he grew up. His beauty was prompted by his kind heart, love of others and beautiful morals. He loved everything that was beautiful; Allah, virtue, nature, sea, sun, trees and animals.
There is no place in Ali’s heart for despair. He has always been optimistic and smiling. He enjoyed reading and photography, and spent most of the day keeping, cleaning and feeding birds. He didn’t like to keep them inside the cage – he used to set them free to fly around the yard without anyone annoying them.
His father used to take him on his commercial travels and soon realized his son’s passion for travel and knowledge. He was always asking questions about the origins of the differences in food and costume between different peoples. He would even wonder about the differences between faiths. He used to say: “Christians worship God, Muslims worship Allah, so why are they different from each other?”
Bitter taste of prison
I wept and cried when he was taken, but never expected that I would go on crying and weeping for four long years. He was taken from the warmth of our home and forced to be detained in the freezing cold of dark prisons. He was absented from his house and loved ones to taste the bitter insipid taste of life in prison cells.
No situation was more painful than when I saw my son in prison. I was yearning to see him, but I had to turn my face because I did not recognize him. He did not have his shape, or his voice, because he had been tortured.
He didn’t need to tell me what had happened because his face, hands, feet and body spoke on his behalf. Wounds and swollen bruises were clearly visible on his body. He was weak and wasted as well as very evidently yellowish and frail. All of this was a result of being kicked and beaten.
Generosity, passion and kind heart
With Ali’s absence, I miss many things and many things in life miss him as well. They miss his presence and generosity. Everything in the house misses his touch, passion and kind heart.
Every time I weep, I imagine Ali wiping my tears and patting me on the head, telling me: “Don’t cry mom, do not make my heart sad”. I used to wait for daylight at night, but now I can no longer tell days from nights; they have both collapsed into darkness. I have headaches each night and insomnia has taken control to the extent that I now hate the time night falls.
Ali is life, and life cannot flourish without him; he brings life to space and pulse to time. He is the light without whom life is not beautiful in our eyes.
Hope and freedom
I plea to all people of humanity to appeal to the officials to release my son. He should be free to live the life he aspires for as a young man full of ambition and the desire to give. At the least, they should give him a retrial that is public and fair and in accordance with international standards. It should be based on evidence rather than trumped-up charges.
More you can do:
Please join our call on King Salman of Saudi Arabia to quash the conviction and sentence of Ali al-Nimr, and two other young activists Abdullah al-Zaher and Dawood Marhoon who were also arrested as teenagers and face death after taking part in the same protests. With all appeals exhausted, the three could be executed at any time.
Join our Thunderclap on Twitter, Facebook and Tumblr – it will “store” your message demanding justice alongside hundreds of others and then “release” them all at the same time on February 14, 2016. By acting together, our voices will be even louder – and we can increase the pressure to stop three young activists being executed.